Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Ism's- Autistic Manifestations
Since I got back from the Option Institute, I have noticed an increase in Nathan's stims.
That is to say, more flapping, zoning out etc.
I am not sure if it was my week away that has caused this, with his change in routine, or whether I am better able to discern them now.
It does appear that he is more Autistic than I initially thought which is a little disparaging.
He is also apparently trying to pay me back for having been gone or just making his displeasure known as he has been spitting in my hair and taking opportunities slyly to smack me on the bum when I am otherwise occupied.
Kathleen returned to her screaming.
Indescriminate high pitched wailing anytime of the day or night for no obvious reason.
It had been gone for approx 7-8 months and I really didn't miss it.
I spent Saturday night waiting for the Sheriff''s car to appear but, I guess my neighbours are used to it by now.
There is so much to do.
It is a little overwhelming and I am not sure where to start.
This pregnancy is knocking the stuffing out of me and I am nauseous and exhausted most of the time.
Paul had an accident at work on the Monday after I returned and it looks as if he broke at least one bone in his hand. So he had to miss a couple of days there.
He does not get paid for any days off and already had taken six days off while I was at the course so it means that our paycheck this week will be pretty close to non existent.
We live paycheck to paycheck and I wiped out our savings going to the course.
We spend any money left over looking for options for the children.
So it is looking pretty bleak and more than a little disheartening.
I still have to go to war with the school about doing Nathan's home program and I am not looking forward to that either as quite frankly I am getting tired of having to fight for everything.
Isn't it enough that I have three children with Autism?
Why should I have to attend weekly meetings to ensure that the school is doing what they are meant to and that the teacher isn't screwing around.
Should I be the one monitoring this. Isn't the principal the one who is meant to be doing this?
I guess that today is not a real good day for me as I am bawling while I write this.
I am just so sick and tired of having to fight for everything.
I am not a bad person. I am not nasty or impolite.
Why is it so hard for me all the time.
I am sick of having to be strong and tough.
Just once I would like someone to look after me for a little bit.
A champion or just a little light at the end of the tunnel.
That is to say, more flapping, zoning out etc.
I am not sure if it was my week away that has caused this, with his change in routine, or whether I am better able to discern them now.
It does appear that he is more Autistic than I initially thought which is a little disparaging.
He is also apparently trying to pay me back for having been gone or just making his displeasure known as he has been spitting in my hair and taking opportunities slyly to smack me on the bum when I am otherwise occupied.
Kathleen returned to her screaming.
Indescriminate high pitched wailing anytime of the day or night for no obvious reason.
It had been gone for approx 7-8 months and I really didn't miss it.
I spent Saturday night waiting for the Sheriff''s car to appear but, I guess my neighbours are used to it by now.
There is so much to do.
It is a little overwhelming and I am not sure where to start.
This pregnancy is knocking the stuffing out of me and I am nauseous and exhausted most of the time.
Paul had an accident at work on the Monday after I returned and it looks as if he broke at least one bone in his hand. So he had to miss a couple of days there.
He does not get paid for any days off and already had taken six days off while I was at the course so it means that our paycheck this week will be pretty close to non existent.
We live paycheck to paycheck and I wiped out our savings going to the course.
We spend any money left over looking for options for the children.
So it is looking pretty bleak and more than a little disheartening.
I still have to go to war with the school about doing Nathan's home program and I am not looking forward to that either as quite frankly I am getting tired of having to fight for everything.
Isn't it enough that I have three children with Autism?
Why should I have to attend weekly meetings to ensure that the school is doing what they are meant to and that the teacher isn't screwing around.
Should I be the one monitoring this. Isn't the principal the one who is meant to be doing this?
I guess that today is not a real good day for me as I am bawling while I write this.
I am just so sick and tired of having to fight for everything.
I am not a bad person. I am not nasty or impolite.
Why is it so hard for me all the time.
I am sick of having to be strong and tough.
Just once I would like someone to look after me for a little bit.
A champion or just a little light at the end of the tunnel.
# posted by donna mason @ 6:25 AM 
